Archive for January, 2014

Post It!

so simple yet you made it so special it a simple way. thank you again.

Casual versus Formal

From a casual/random texts we are to a formal one. Weird isn’t? But know what, I miss the first one. The random texts we had, nothing formal. Just being normal, share anything you want. Being real.

The Kid in Stranger

Being a kid, can’t be measure through numbers – age. There’s always a saying kid at heart.

just a thought of it.

Conversation with a Good Friend

Last night, I had a conversation through text with one of my friends. It only started with, asking me “how am I doing?” I just said ” mmm.. I’m good somehow recovering” and it continues until the words come out this way, “I should be happy, isn’t? Because somehow, we’re friends (I think).

Know what good things about being friends? It’s not that they were there for you, but everything is neutral. Meaning, you can be who you are who you wanted to be. No need to worry if it’s ok or not. Things like habit, mannerism, expression, how we eat, talk, favorite stuff down to the simplest things like laughing, cry, mad and more. The point is being you, yourself and most of all being real and honest. The point is accepting the differences of each person especially the flaws of one another because one cannot be whole if it’s only the good qualities will accepted. Positive and negative goes hand in hand just like as simple as the battery, isn’t? One piece of battery has a positive and negative to make things work. As same as with the people we meet in our lives they have their good and bad qualities and so as ourselves. As our conversation goes on until late at night, which I forgot to open my PC because I was too engross to the topic and the words suddenly came out my mouth that “I should be okay with it though it’s painful, but it’s always part of our lives, which is called learning.”  Learning, appreciating, accepting one another, and giving unlimited chances to make the corrections as much as possible. As our conversation was about to end, I just ask to myself. “Am I a friend for him? Or I was just assuming that we’re friends? Or is there a level or stage of being friends with him? Meaning, it’s like there is an exam which is if you pass you can accelerate to the next level if not you left there or the game is over. (just thought about it, cause I remember when you ask how can you say you’re friends? – during one afternoon) 

Novice I am. Doesn’t know where should I stand but for now this is better.

 

Plan Ahead

People always plan. What they want to do. Where they want to go. Everything. It just depends on what comes first, priorities. But no matter how well you plan a thing, there is always something that will pop up and make changes everything as how you plan it.

Well, just like today. This afternoon, it was surprised that I was schedule that this coming Saturday for my business trip but still tentative (hoping for changes) in which I’ve already schedule myself to have my own time this coming Friday. I don’t know if I should be happy about it or what but the problem was everything was set already. The things I should bring, the “pasalubong” for my relatives over there and the like. Though honestly I have my own reason why I want to go there, everyone was a little bit of shocked because it was a sudden decision.

Hoping and wishing for a change. Please.

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Question: Are you guys still not ok?

A question that was asked me for many times, and my response was we’re just okay but it wasn’t the way it used to be. But somehow, we’re still good. (Or perhaps we’re just both pretending that everything was still good between us).

And another one asked me, haven’t you open up to him what happened? I just answered it, how would I start? I don’t even know if he still care about it. I don’t even know what’s going on his mind. Worst is I don’t even know if I am really a friend for him or just an ordinary office mate for him or probably commoner to be open. Also, I said that if I’d open up the topic. What would be his reaction. He might say it wasn’t an issue for him or worst that I could probably heard from him was “are we friends?”. Then what, that would be shameful for me. Isn’t? Cause I’m treating him as one of my friends and yet for him I was just nothing.

Though, honestly how many times I attempt to say it to you but I always have a second thought and didn’t know how am I going to start it. Because I felt that I wasn’t in the place already. Unlike the old days were how can I just easily give you text with anything I want to share it with you, but after I’ve said those words to you even a simple text I can’t make it anymore. It become hard, I always thought should I or shouldn’t? But a while ago, I just broke it. I reciprocate what he did in our lunch, I swallow my pride and give him a text during our break time. Cause for me, we’re really still good. Good as friends. Or I’m just assuming.

And one more thing, those eyes were really different the one I saw last Saturday. It’s like there something on it that I can’t explain. I just want to ask you, “Are you ok?” (why does this simple question can be so hard to say it already for me.. 😦  

If there would come to a point that I can ask you one thing is, am I your friend or I am just an office mate for you? Answer it with truth on yourself, don’t think of me. Cause being honest will be greatly appreciated.