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safe haven

Intentions are like magnets; the more we declare them, believe in them, and act in ways to manifest them, the more powerful and real they become.

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How are you? Quite good. But to be honest, why it is so hard to forget a mistake done unto you. Even how many times I want to think the good stuff that happened, in my mind I can’t think of anything good stuff. The worst was the mistake keep reminding me of what that person did to me. 5 months had gone and counting?!? I don’t know but I know this feeling.

Few days ago I’ve decided not to used this one, instead of “” though I’m not used to it but quite good for me as days passed by.

A05 bid farewell

hard for me but its a must that I have too. I didn’t regret anything especially letting that person knows my feelings. Rejections? Didn’t afraid of it. It’s part of it, cause if you won’t do it how will you know, right? But after that, its good promise. You know why, everything becomes normal. We got normal talks, normal actions, everything seems to be okay.

Not until that day. Sorry, it really marked every month of that day.

I got this from a book that I’ve just read: “How do you know if you keep a record of wrongs? Simple. When you see someone, what comes to your mind? Are you immediately confronted with the fact that you just don’t like that person because of something they’ve said or done? Or are you ready to show love?”

To be honest, I pledged guilty here that I do still mad at her. Because every time I saw her face, I remember everything she said to me. And it hurts. Why? Because no matter how many times I want to delete those from my memories its just can’t. And every effort she does to me, there’s no scoreboard. Cause I’m afraid that it might happen again. If asking me why I’m still being good to her, it is because that’s the only thing that left for me to do. And it is part of who am I.

Though there’s a saying you can create another one, but the problem is, is not that easy. I don’t know how long will it took for us (me & her) to get back but I’ll tell you one thing, I had a close friend wherein it took for us 14 months to say “hello” again. This friend of mine, we’re good friends for almost 10 years. How about us? We’re just starting, I don’t know if time will permit us to be together again we’re just nearly 2 years. I was torn in between, but I chose to remain good to you always.

I honestly really want to have you guys back but I put a wall that its so hard to break it.

I want to give him a present for his birthday but I chose not to. It’s not that I don’t have in my mind, I have but I’m opt not to buy it. Because for me being there and spending few minutes of my time was enough to show you the importance. And because of his invitation that why I attended to. Though at the back of my mind maybe the girl told him to do so.

Don’t worry, anytime you need something as long as I can. I’m willing to help you out and as long as I’m working there. I might just finish my contract, though I’m not yet that sure.

Thank you for your kindness, this one is for you guys.

From smile to stranger.. then to….. chummy (whatever??!!)


A pic I saw as I was browsing a while ago. Maybe the word like is not right thing to say it but it is where things start right? But as time goes by, yea I guess. The feeling just grew. Feelings will never be gone it will just pass or replaced by anything. It will be part of one’s life already that once I had a feelings for you.

Bye A05 (anonymous05user), I don’t want to because this is my cyberworld name and simply it is me.

Bye A05 and hello to safe haven –

Maybe one day, I will visit this again. I hope so.

I just need time to heal, badly…..

No. 9

Aside from number five, nine is also one of my fave number. But unlike five that connects a lot to me, nine because when you pronounce nine (九) in chinese  is jiu which can be similar with 久 (jiu) which means (long) duration of time.


People don’t change just by saying ” I’m sorry”. People change by knowing exactly why they should be sorry. And sometimes, no matter how sorry you are, there’s no way to ever go back and fix what has been broken!

Under Armour

As I bring the shoes this morning, I’ll let my mom show the pair of shoes because she was too curious. After she saw it, her comment was why not under armour. Its a brand of apparel which sells sports items which is their company distributing it.

Love is active

Love is active. It is on the move, in forward motion. And what we should see is that in none of these descriptions is the feeling of love primary. 1 Corinthians 13 is not calling us to wait until we feel like loving people before we demonstrate love to them. It’s telling us to love them.

Our culture says that feelings of love are the basis for actions of love. And of course that can be true. But it is truer to say that actions of love can lead consistently to feelings of love. Love between two people must not, in the end, be identified simply with emotion or merely with dutiful action. Married love is a symbiotic, complex mixture of both. Having said this, it is important to observe that of the two—emotion and action—it is the latter that we have the most control over. It is the action of love that we can promise to maintain every day.

We may not have ready control over our emotions. But we can control what we do. Love is not mainly about having a fuzzy feeling for people. Paul is saying that if your motive is love, get out and do love for them. Paul is prescribing action for us in this text. And it is very clear how to apply it.

Love does not envy or boast

Love does not envy or boast. Envy is what stirs us to be jealous of others’ gifting and qualifications and possessions. Paul rebuked them in chapter 3, “For you are still of the flesh. For while there is jealousy and strife among you, are you not of the flesh and behaving only in human way?” (1 Cor. 3:3). Love, on the other hand, is not merely human. It is not natural but supernatural, the fruit of the Spirit’s work. It does not draw from the resources of this sinful world (things like jealousy and strife) but by the Spirit is armed with heavenly qualities (such as contentment and joy). 

With love, how can we be envious of others, going about as if we were needy orphans? Love reminds us that we are rich in the gospel, heirs of the King. It frees us from constantly checking the bank account of our lives, comparing the balance with what we see in others.

The flipside of envy is boasting. We can covet the gifting of others or we can boast about our own. Apparently, the Corinthians were doing both. “What do you boast that you did not receive? If then you received it, why do you boast as if you did not receive it?” (1 Cor. 4:7). Love reminds us that we are rich, but we are rich in the gospel. Not because of our ingenious financial planning. Not because we somehow managed to make it to the top. But because God delights in writing the names of paupers into his will.

Love is kind

But love does not merely respond with tolerance in the face of offenses; love is active to show goodness to the undeserving. Love, Paul says, is kind. And it is generous in its kindness. It is postured to give, to bless, to demonstrate love toward others. Love is like a playbook in which every move is designed to be gracious to someone; no matter which play you choose, the only options available to you are to do good for them. Love does not wait to decide whether there is something in the other individual that draws out love. Love leans forward, assumes the best about them, and treats them as if they are worthy of love.


Love is patient

Paul says that love is patient, or that it is long-suffering. The picture is not just that love is able to wait for a long time but that love receives wounds without evening the score. Love rolls with the punches, so to speak. Love does not respond to evil in kind (1 Peter 3:9). It is prepared to overlook offenses when necessary. It does not feel the need to right every wrong done against it. “Love lowers the temperature of most conflicts by refusing to engage in retaliation.”