Today, I had a conversation with one of my good friend since we’re in school. As the conversation goes on and on, a word step down comes out from her mouth. And then I realized yes, I also did that since April. I step down from that friendship just so the two of them remain as good as it was before I entered to their lives. Cause I don’t want to be the cause of a broken friendship they have. I’m willing and I did it so that they win. Although someone might say why I lose it or give up on it, for me its not about losing or giving up because seeing them that they remain that way I’m happy and contented. I know I did my part being a friend. I just hope that they knew how I value them, both of them. Even if it is painful, I have to lose it. But doing that, I realized one thing that how much I value you guys but I didn’t find my value from you that’s why I withdraw from you.

The difference between me and my good friend was I’m willing to do something to make it for the last time but she, she will not do anything. How I wish I have those kind of concept but for me, I just don’t want to regret things when it’s too late.

Maybe some of you guys would say that I was stuck-up from the past, you may say so. But more likely I learned a lot. At the same time, the me right now it’s not new it is always there but it only shows very seldom, it only comes out when I’m in very painful situation that I want to hide but its not possible. It’s my way to protect myself because the people you’ve thought will take good care of you were the one can/will harm you.